I’m afraid to have children or a child. I have this feeling that I’ll die soon. I will die soon.

I’m in my 20s and frequently experiencing blood loss either I vomit it or melena. I’ve gone twice blood transfusion and both was given four bags of blood. I have a damaged liver, spleenomegaly and minimal ascites. 

I don’t want children. Even though I want, someday. But I could die early you know; what will happen to the child then? His life will be like mine; moving from relative to relative and will be treated badly, sometimes. It hurts to know that it will happen to your child, because you’ve been through that hardships. It hurts.


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